heya people
i'm updating just to let you people know that i'll almost never be online anymore
my computer really has an attitude problem
it refuses to be switched on
but for those of you who actually do see me online
it might be beacuse of one of the following:
1) i'm at a friend's house using the com
2) my com was having a good day and decided to let me use it
3) you are daydreaming way too much about me
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but i doubt it'll be because of the last point
by the way, anybody who knows of anybody
who's also trying to get into nyjc
please do let me know
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i better end here before my com finds out that i'm blogging =)

heya people
tomorrow is the last day of the 'O's!!
yeah that's right
all the while that we people have been saying, "ahh.. 'O's die ar.."
well, we've survived it all
most of the papers so far have been quite ok
to me, the e-maths & a-maths papers are the easiest
hoping to score an A for both
as for the hardest papers, i guess that would be the physics paper 2
it was insane
i aint too confident about my SS paper too
geog & english just ok
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next wed having some briefing about the first 3 months jc
found out michelle already got the booklet about how to apply and the cutoff points
guess my school's inefficient eh
hahaha
well, in case some of you are wondering whats the cut-off point for some of the jcs
nyjc>> sci:10 arts:13
cjc>>> sci:13 arts:14
srjc>> sci:18 arts:18
yjc>> sci:20 arts:20
(thanks to mich for the info)
now i'm really thinking about where i wanna go
argh
think think think!!
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i noticed something about what some people said about my hairstyle
seems that most of the teachers think that my old curly, frizzy hairstyle is better
especially mrs goh, mr ng & ms shamsudin
but i think most of my friends say i look better now
oh wells, you be the judge
maybe mrs goh, mr ng & ms shamsudin like curly hair cause that was the 'in' thing during their time eh hahaha
all i know is that ms shamsudin keeps saying, "rudy, your hairstyle looks weird.." everytime i see her
bleahx =/
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good luck to all taking the poa paper 1 in about 5 minutes time
and all taking chemistry tomorrow
tomorrow's the last day of 'O's!!
seems that everybody is so busy after the exams
i have like almost nothing =/
see ya

time now's about 3+
i just love the feeling of staying awake at this hour
everything's so calm, quiet and cool
its so peaceful and tranquil
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lately been studying more i guess
i don't know why but the nearer it gets to the exams the better i can study eh
i kinda sound like a last minute person right
and i can't wait for the next two weeks to be over
some might say i'm crazy cause i'm looking forward to the exams
but no, i'm looking forward to the end of the exams eh
don't get me wrong
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lately people have also been telling me that i keep alot of stuff to myself
they say i don't open up to other people or something like that
well i can't say that you're wrong or anything
i also think so
i guess it's just difficult for me to trust people eh
had bad experiences with trust before
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wells nothing else to blog about
so guess i'll end here
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too bad bishan doesn't have a 24hours mac
i suddenly got the craving for a fillet-o-fish =)

its kinda been a normal week for me
studying a lil bit here and there
nothing much happening too
so i actually have nothing to blog about today
but i'm here anyway so i might as well say something right
some people have also been bugging me to update too
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wells its been four years since i came to braddell-westlake
though i never wanted to come to this school
fate told me that i really had no choice in the matter
firstly was because my mum had set too high a target for me
which in the end i certainly did not achieve
secondly was my numerous failed attempts to transfer out of this school
i had tried for the whole of my first year in secondary school but to no avail
i guess it was fated eh
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by then i had to accept my fate and the fact that i wasn't going anywhere
the first year passed by like a breeze
day by day it went by
i may have had i guess one good friend i could get along with
but by the second year more bonds and friendships emerged
with friends like isaac and faisal from my class
i started making new friends from the other classes too
hmm, i can still remember getting to know shi wee, carmen & sukri
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by the third year, i surely had settled in
i was doing well in both npcc and the prefectorial board
through this i was able to get to know even more people
friendships now crossed even levels
then i was sec 3 and i had friends in sec 2: priscilla, minghon and many others
sec 4: cindy, guo dong, suriana, well i could go on forever
sec 3 was a pretty interesting year
many things happened
doing all the prefect dances with the sec4s
being the emcee for speech day with suriana
being the vice-head
taking over the npcc unit from the sec4 NCOs
the new friendship, the betrayals
the trust, the deception, the lies
i may not have always liked the experience
having the pressures from all around squeezing me like a sponge
but i'm glad that i went through that cause i have gained so much more in return
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secondary 4
the last year of my secondary school life
after the many trials in sec 3
i felt that this year, i was better prepared for whatever was to come
and the challenges surely did come
i felt i was better able to cope with whatever situation i was thrown into
i felt that at least i had grown up a lil bit, matured a lil bit
even the teachers said that i look better this year when compared to the last
mrs cheong even said, "rudy, you so much relaxed this year. so much better then last year. you were always so tensed up"
well at least i know she did same something like that
it may not be word for word but the gist is there
and even being the head prefect and all
chairman of the school's npcc unit
i guess i was still able to live through it and i survived
i was even asked to set up a new cca in the school: interact club
whether i have succeed or failed, at least i know that i have done my best
and now i put all that behind me and focus on my upcoming exams
i came into the school dreading the cruel hand fate had dealt me
but now i cherish every last moment i have left in this school
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to all who know me out there
whether you dislike me or you don't
no matter how long i've not talked to you
i would like to wish you all the best in your future
and never give up in whatever you do
you may not be able to see the light at the end of the tunnel yet
but sooner or later, it will come
and usually the longer you've stayed in the darkness of the tunnel
the brighter the light waiting for you at the end
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see ya people