so predictable.

prelims were over for quite some time now
how i did?
well so far i've only gotten the results of 4 subjects
am i satisfied?
i guess so
am i happy?
i dont think so
am i grateful?
yes i am
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now all that's left to do is to wait for my english and humanities results
should be out by monday
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one big issue that's been popping up these pass few days is the prefects
it seems that one of the prefects got into trouble (shall not name who)
when i heard about the incident from mrs goh
i could not believe that that person would react in such a way
a few people got into trouble
i would understand if those other people would do something like that
but never did i think a prefect would do it too
it was then that i realised that i felt that our school students need to grow up
not all of them, but majority of them
the way those people reacted was uncalled for
even worse, it showed just how childish and immature they are
they're so full of pride
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this incident has brought to my attention the other prefects as well
while i was talking with mrs goh one morning
mrs goh could already start scolding some prefects as they walk passed
not wearing tie, listening discman, taking their own sweet time walking down for morning assembly
mrs singh even complained to mrs goh about the prefects while i was there
my heart ached so much i tell you
my could this have happened?
my could the standards of prefects sank so low that non-prefects can tell the prefects off
almost everyday i see prefects doing inapropriate things
i have been giving this alot of thought and it has gone to the extent that i even spent the night awake thinking about it in bed
and through all those nights, i can only conclude one thing
i have failed
yes, you heard me right
i have failed my duties as the head prefect
i have failed so badly to the extent that i'm worried that the vice heads will not be able to manage the board well enough to move on to guanyang
i have failed to teach them what it means to be a prefect
the purpose, the motivation, the skills of a leader
i accept that i have failed
what i can do now i guess is to prepare for the worse and hope that the braddell-westlake prefects don't die out on a bad note
its times like this that i'm kinda relieved that the school did not engrave my name on the list of head prefects eh
maybe they already knew that the prefects were doomed from the start when i took over
so cai ping will be the last successful head prefect BWL will ever have
come to think off it all the past head prefects were very successful
2002 natalya was the singapore - asia mtv youth ambassador for the UN
2003 raynuka was an NKF champion
looks like i've destroyed the legacy they left behind eh
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to all the BWL prefects out there
i hope that being a prefect in BWL as affected you in a positive way
all the best

yeah
i can finally update!!
sorry to all those who read my blog eh (if any)
my com has kinda been screwed lately
internet explorer doesn't really work except on some websites
i cant even check my own e-mail!!
cant even read other people's blogs
bleahx
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but all this is now changed thanks to....
sammie!!
haha
she sent me mozilla firefox installer
its something like internet explorer la
yeah sammie!!
thanks lods
sammie you rock
firefox rocks
lol
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well though now i can finally update i feel like i got nothing much to blog about leh
hmm
prelims are over
finally
i hope most of my papers are ok
but i have the least confidence for my physics
oh mr yong is so gonna be disappointed with me
the good news is that i've gotten back my e-maths & a-maths results
really happy about the results eh
but cant be too happy yet though
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erm
i cant think of anything else to blog right now
i shall blog again when i have more inspiration k
till then
see ya people

hey hey

i'm back i'm back

back for what you say

i'm back to blog of course

*lames*

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you remember yesterday i said that i got more stuff to blog about

well guess what

i decided that i ain't gonna blog about it

like people keep telling me, and i quote, "dun think too much ehs."

yes yes i know

but you cant expect me not to think about anything right

i'll just be as good as brain dead right

oh wells

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today as i was walking up to the hall mr lim was like talking to me

mr lim; rudy, you need to learn how to focus and be relax.

me; eh mr lim, you like contradicting yourself leh. you're asking me to focus and be relaxed?

mr lim; you don't get it. its like hitting yourself against a tree and sayinig that you don't have any scratches.

me; *scratches head*

hmm

but i kinda get what he means eh

he even said its like a skill i need to aquire or something like that

since then i've been thinking about what other teachers have said to me too

i still remeber in sec2 during a science test mrs hay said

mrs hay; rudy, you can do it is only i think you don't have the determination and mindset to do it.

me; *dotx...*

if i remember correctly i failed that test you know

*laughs*

what's more, during yesterday's e-maths paper mr ng so-called chatted with me even though it was only for a short while

mr ng; eh rudy, how come now you like got more pimples? too stressed up is it? *laughs*

me; really meh? stress can lead to more pimples ar?

mr ng; yeah

lol

i didn't realise stress can lead to pimples you know!!

but i guess i shouldn't be suprised

mrs hay even said before that she can predict that i'll marry a chinese girl

but...

that's another story for another time

lol

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good luck to all those having papers tomorrow

i only have e-maths paper 2

just one paper!!

means i'll get to go home early =P

see ya people

i just need to blog right now

no more 'chim' stuff today

just my blog entry plain and simple

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well it's getting on my nerves again

i'm in the middle of the so called 'cold war' at home

whether i like it or not

sometimes it really irritates me

but guess i'll just have to be patient and just live with it

just shut up and live with it rudy! quit complaining!

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prelims started this week

tomorrow's english paper 2 and social studies

the papers i've taken so far are quite ok i guess

shall not comment or complain about anything cause no matter what i say or do

nothing is going to change

crying and mopping about it ain't gonna help me get better grades

what's done is done and i'll just have to accept that

but as for the papers that have yet to come

those are the papers i can still do something about

so good luck to all those taking ya prelims eh

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enough about exams and stuff

time to write about my thoughts i guess

but before i begin i just wanna say to all out there

my posts and entries on my blog are not meant to hurt or insult people in any way

these are just my thoughts and opinions

you may or may not agree with me that's totally up to you

i know i may not be right all the time

but hey they're just what i think

some of you may find my blog hurtful or something like that

you people think that i don't have a life and that i have nothing better to do

well you guys can think whatever you want

i will not hold anything against you or anybody for disliking or even hating me

to me, its just how the world works

you can't get everybody to like you

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let me start

have you ever wondered why some people make jokes out of every single thing in their lives?

even issues that are meant to be taken seriously, they joke about it

unfortunately, sometimes these jokes do hurt people

i guess i'm starting to think that for this people, making jokes is just another way for them to handle difficult situations

there's nothing wrong with that right?

i started thinking what would i do if i were in their shoes

i make jokes out of everything, even serious things

because i'm afraid that if take something seriously

and if things go bad, i'll be badly affected

jokes allow me to let go and let loose eh

its just the same as saying, "If I don't trust, I won't be betrayed."

in this case, if i don't grow attached to something, i won't be affected by it

by the way, i just wanna point out that i'm not like that ok

at least i don't think so

i don't think i make jokes out of serious matters

am i right?

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i dont't know

maybe i'm thinking too much

argh

what am i doing?

my mind should be buried in textbooks and here i am thinking about this kinda stuff

have i nothing better to do?

i hope not

for the sake of myself and my prelims

well guess i better get going now

i actually have more stuff to blog about eh

but maybe not today

think my books are calling me

see ya people

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i wanna apologise to all those that are hurt by my blog

i'm sorry

hey!

i finally updated

thanks to the few people out there who keep bugging me to update

hmm

but still i don't know what to update about

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life's been pretty alright the past few weeks

i won't say its been all great

but i won't say that its been all bad too

life's full of ups and downs eh

things have been going kinda smooth lately

no bumps along the road

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hmm

i'm trying out this new song for my blog

the afters' song "beautiful love" is nice

but maybe try something different eh

let me know if you like it

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the father's getting irritating again

oh well

i'll have to get used to it sooner or later

shall not let it bother me so much

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mich>>

eh i guess you're right eh

im kinda lazy to blog about teacher's day, herbie and the installation

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sorry to all out there

see ya