Saturday, April 30, 2005
9:03 PM
you said i have a black heart
and they said you were right
what else is there for me to say
except for
goodbye
the shadow of transcendence is beautiful......∂]]
10:07 AM
just close your eyes
you might be suprised
it's beautiful
you might find
that most of the time
it's beautiful
the shadow of transcendence is beautiful......∂]]
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
9:41 PM
wow.
i cannot believe how much people will do just to get attention.
even when they already have friends and stuff.
they still wanna attract attention of other people.
and the things they do to get it.
wow.
salutes to them.
its so freaky that it really make them look desperate.
i did some really stupid things last year.
so stupid that some people actually managed to find out about it.
but this year is different.
i have learned from my mistakes.
and this year will be different.
it will be hidden.
note to self: my class is kinda getting irritating.
i cannot believe how much people will do just to get attention.
even when they already have friends and stuff.
they still wanna attract attention of other people.
and the things they do to get it.
wow.
salutes to them.
its so freaky that it really make them look desperate.
i did some really stupid things last year.
so stupid that some people actually managed to find out about it.
but this year is different.
i have learned from my mistakes.
and this year will be different.
it will be hidden.
note to self: my class is kinda getting irritating.
the shadow of transcendence is beautiful......∂]]
Monday, April 25, 2005
10:52 PM
as the moon stares at me.
as the rain sings for me.
as the wind blows me away.
and as the music takes me away.
guess what.
my taste in music has changed for the weird.
right now i'm kinda into techno.
well, some kinds only.
techno aint nice. i know that.
but some songs i hear.
they just take me away.
they just keep my mind off everything.
its wonderful.
but illusions like this are only temporary.
they can never really chase away all your problems.
its like a drug. a temporary high that keeps your mind free.
its addictive.
as the rain sings for me.
as the wind blows me away.
and as the music takes me away.
guess what.
my taste in music has changed for the weird.
right now i'm kinda into techno.
well, some kinds only.
techno aint nice. i know that.
but some songs i hear.
they just take me away.
they just keep my mind off everything.
its wonderful.
but illusions like this are only temporary.
they can never really chase away all your problems.
its like a drug. a temporary high that keeps your mind free.
its addictive.
the shadow of transcendence is beautiful......∂]]
Sunday, April 24, 2005
1:27 PM
time management.
prioritising.
work under pressure.
stress management.
some teachers just don't get it.
we're teenagers. not working adults.
fun.
friends.
great times.
low stress level.
studies.
now that's kinda what we should be going through.
but no. they just don't get it.
they stretch their students way too much.
just because the principal is like you know what i mean.
doesn't give them the excuse to find fault in us.
you teachers wanna find fault then see if we could care less about you next time.
prioritising.
work under pressure.
stress management.
some teachers just don't get it.
we're teenagers. not working adults.
fun.
friends.
great times.
low stress level.
studies.
now that's kinda what we should be going through.
but no. they just don't get it.
they stretch their students way too much.
just because the principal is like you know what i mean.
doesn't give them the excuse to find fault in us.
you teachers wanna find fault then see if we could care less about you next time.
the shadow of transcendence is beautiful......∂]]
Friday, April 22, 2005
11:47 PM
i suddenly realised i had alot of things on my mind
so many things, too many things that it made me blind
i'm lost and confused, i feel twisted and used
all that has happened to me is something i did not choose
i was feeling really lost today.
after speech day on the way back found myself wondering around.
but it made me realise about alot of things.
i realised that i had too many things on my mind.
till i had no more space or time for myself.
friends & family. its like my social life is gone.
people keep askin me all sorts of questions.
how do i climb the ranks of prefects, npcc and now interact.
so whats next? they ask.
my mind goes blank. i feel so empty inside.
mid-years are coming.
all this negative mojo is bad.
boos.
hope it all goes away.
or maybe it can go away and come back another day.
rain rain go away. come again another day.
so many things, too many things that it made me blind
i'm lost and confused, i feel twisted and used
all that has happened to me is something i did not choose
i was feeling really lost today.
after speech day on the way back found myself wondering around.
but it made me realise about alot of things.
i realised that i had too many things on my mind.
till i had no more space or time for myself.
friends & family. its like my social life is gone.
people keep askin me all sorts of questions.
how do i climb the ranks of prefects, npcc and now interact.
so whats next? they ask.
my mind goes blank. i feel so empty inside.
mid-years are coming.
all this negative mojo is bad.
boos.
hope it all goes away.
or maybe it can go away and come back another day.
rain rain go away. come again another day.
the shadow of transcendence is beautiful......∂]]
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
8:30 PM
boos. had a lousy day today.
mrs teo you spoiled my day today. boos.
mosquito you spoiled my day today. booos.
filter funnel you spoiled my day today. boooos.
macdonalds you spoiled my day today. boooooos.
hope tomorrow is a totally new and different day.
mrs teo you spoiled my day today. boos.
mosquito you spoiled my day today. booos.
filter funnel you spoiled my day today. boooos.
macdonalds you spoiled my day today. boooooos.
hope tomorrow is a totally new and different day.
the shadow of transcendence is beautiful......∂]]
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
9:48 PM
Take your soul along for the ride
and make each trip your crucible
You might find that most of the time
this life is beautiful
All it takes is faith in the way
it sometimes seems impossible
Close your eyes
You might be surprised
It's beautiful
and make each trip your crucible
You might find that most of the time
this life is beautiful
All it takes is faith in the way
it sometimes seems impossible
Close your eyes
You might be surprised
It's beautiful
the shadow of transcendence is beautiful......∂]]
Sunday, April 17, 2005
11:25 AM
you can close your eyes and never be lonely
when you imagine of a place where you can be free
no rules or regulations and nothing to stop you
a place where you can do whatever you wish
but does such a place really exist or is it just an illusion?
the answer to this question can only be found in our hearts
because even if it is just an imaginary place
we can turn it into reality if we truly believe in it with our heart
to everybody out there please listen to what i have to say
just because you see that somebody seems lonely
it does not mean that he is
in fact, he might just be in his own imaginary place
instead why not eyes your eyes with him
search within your heart and look for your own special place
it is there that you will see the wonders of your life
and it is there that you will see your friend closing his eyes to find you
when you imagine of a place where you can be free
no rules or regulations and nothing to stop you
a place where you can do whatever you wish
but does such a place really exist or is it just an illusion?
the answer to this question can only be found in our hearts
because even if it is just an imaginary place
we can turn it into reality if we truly believe in it with our heart
to everybody out there please listen to what i have to say
just because you see that somebody seems lonely
it does not mean that he is
in fact, he might just be in his own imaginary place
instead why not eyes your eyes with him
search within your heart and look for your own special place
it is there that you will see the wonders of your life
and it is there that you will see your friend closing his eyes to find you
the shadow of transcendence is beautiful......∂]]
Friday, April 15, 2005
7:30 PM
meet the parents session was such a waste of time
mr ng said to my mum that everything was fine
in and out with record breaking speed
spent more time filling a survey then having a seat
but one big question still lingers in my mind
to go to poly or jc? when both sound fine
maybe something i should ask myself before answering that
is whether i can get into a jc as a matter of fact
what profession i what to take up when i grow up
i still do not know, my mind is closed shut
lost like a sheep, that's what i said before
to be found is my wish, i am to be lost no more
mr ng said to my mum that everything was fine
in and out with record breaking speed
spent more time filling a survey then having a seat
but one big question still lingers in my mind
to go to poly or jc? when both sound fine
maybe something i should ask myself before answering that
is whether i can get into a jc as a matter of fact
what profession i what to take up when i grow up
i still do not know, my mind is closed shut
lost like a sheep, that's what i said before
to be found is my wish, i am to be lost no more
the shadow of transcendence is beautiful......∂]]
Thursday, April 14, 2005
8:02 PM
everyday everynight i wake and i sleep
i'm wandering lost like a lil lost sheep
sometimes i find myself in the middle of no where
thinking of nothing, i'm staring into mid-air
my life right now is kinda like a total mess
i won't blame it on school, and its not about stress
but for some strange reason i'm not in despair
anyway nothing in this world is really that fair
my parents i'm not gonna talk about them
everyday they pretend nothing's happened, what a sham
sometimes i wished they'd stop faking it
its when they cause a big fuse and i've had enough of it
i'm wandering lost like a lil lost sheep
sometimes i find myself in the middle of no where
thinking of nothing, i'm staring into mid-air
my life right now is kinda like a total mess
i won't blame it on school, and its not about stress
but for some strange reason i'm not in despair
anyway nothing in this world is really that fair
my parents i'm not gonna talk about them
everyday they pretend nothing's happened, what a sham
sometimes i wished they'd stop faking it
its when they cause a big fuse and i've had enough of it
the shadow of transcendence is beautiful......∂]]
Sunday, April 10, 2005
10:26 PM
damn freaking parents. go to hell and leave me alone. piss off.
the shadow of transcendence is beautiful......∂]]
9:22 PM
what the hell man. i've been sick since friday. my fever's gone but i still have a headache plus i'm coughing and i have a sore throat. i've been coughing real bad lately. and surely enough. my father says to me, "rudy, you smoke ah." what the hell. who is he to say that to me when he's the one smoking in the first place. secondly, he just accuse me like that. he aint got no proof. and thirdly, I DO NOT SMOKE. i hate smokers and smoking is for losers. after that he casually give me some medicine to take. no way in hell i'm taking medicine he's giving me. i'd rather die coughing.
the shadow of transcendence is beautiful......∂]]
Sunday, April 03, 2005
2:02 AM
this is for the class that rocks~!! FOUR-E-ONE~!!
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the shadow of transcendence is beautiful......∂]]
