its da last day of sch. got back my report bk tdy. i'm ok wid my results but i dunno. cant say it here. later my sister read tis i die. tdy jus tidy up class. throw lods of junk. aft sch played bball. long tym since i played. think abt a yer since i really played bball. ok i guess. floor wet.

jus now aft sch went mac first. though i'm fasting i really don't mind goin places wher dey sell food lo. i dun even mind my frenz eating in front of me. doesnt matter to me. i've even followed ppl eat while im fasting. somethings when i go out wid my frenz, i noe tht dey r hungry but when i ask em ta eat dey dun wan. i noe dat dey jus being nice but its really ok lo. dun starve urself jus bcoz somebody cant eat. im really ok wid it.

anyway, twt lun dey all went ta eat. me, faisal, chua sat another table den da 2 guys were slpin. i was blasting my discman. suddenly started thinking abt some stuff.realised tht alot ppl think dat i dun care abt em but i actually do. mayb i dun really show it or something. but i really do care. it is kinda my fault coz mayb i dun show it. so to everybody out dat. i'm sorry. to lun, twt, cindy. sorry if jus now i ignored u guys.

to every single soul on this freaking world. lately everybody has been reli reli negative. its lyk da end of da world. so mua gonna jus write some stuff here. u ppl out there wanna listen or ignore tis its all up 2 u. i cant force u to do anything. most of da stuff r abt exams.

first of all. faisal. my lil bud. u worry too much. actually everybody i gonna tok abt does worry too much. i noe u think tt u did badly. if u reli did i dunno. but da final results haven even come out yet. further more, if u look worried, u will make other ppl worried oso. tis goes fer worm, ah toh, lun, aik zhi n da others too.

tis ish to ppl hu sae dey wanna die. y would u wanna throw ur whole life away jus bcoz of one thing that happened. it is a sad thing n i understand. but dun throw ur life away. its worth more den dat. some more, if u die, many ppl hu care for u will be hurt. u think dat nobody cares for u but haf u ever asked everybody dat. u may sae dat ppl will lie to u but haf u ever tot da other way. u think ppl got nth better to do den to lie to u. n ur family will oso be hurt. i can be v frank n tell u straight dat ur v selfish coz when u think abt killing urself u dun think how others will feel. but im nt gonna do dat. one more thing, i think dat now u shuld jus try to forget abt wadever dat has happened n move on wid ur life. ur still so young. dun even dare think abt ending ur life.

tis ish to ppl hu dun lyk goin out in big grps. im sorry i messed up ur dae. shuldnt haf asked so many ppl come.

tis ish to ppl hu lyk to break up into smaller grps. look. jus bcoz ppl break up into smaller grps doesnt mean we dun mix wid each other anymore. it jus means dat we tokin wid dat person lo. doesnt mean we hiding stuff frm u ppl.

tis ish to ppl hu think dat i dun haf to worry abt my results coz u think im clever. first of all do u reli noe me dat well. there mayb some stuff abt me dat u dun reli noe. lyk most gangsters in sch or wadever usually come frm bad family backgrnd. tts y dey make trouble to attract attention. den most will think good children will haf gd family backgrnd. but hu noes. few ppl reli noe dat darker side of me. some ppl noe some parts. others noe other parts. so dun think ppl hu r gd or clever or wadever are all gd. dun judge a bk by iys freaking cover.

what's so good about being negative?? somebody please tell me...

"Easier to Run"

It’s easier to run
Replacing this pain with something more
It’s so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

Something has been taken from deep inside of me
The secret I’ve kept locked away no one can ever see
Wounds so deep they never show they never go away
Like moving pictures in my head for years and years they’ve played

(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(If I could take all the shame to the grave I would)
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(I would take all my shame to the grave)

It’s easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It’s so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories I wish I didn’t have
Sometimes I think of letting go and never looking back
And never moving forward so there’d never be a path

(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(If I could take all the shame to the grave I would)
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(I would take all my shame to the grave)

Just watching in the sun
All of my helplessness inside
Pretending I don’t feel misplaced
It’s so much simpler to change

It’s easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It’s so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
It’s easier to run

(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made)
It’s easier to go
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(I would take all my shame to the grave)

"You're A God"

I've got to be honest
I think you know
We're covered in lies and that's OK
There's somewhere beyond this I know
But I hope I can find the words to say

Never again no
No never again

[Chorus]
'Cause you're a god
And I am not
And I just thought
That you would know
You're a god
And I am not
And I just thought
I'd let you go

But I've been unable
To put you down
I'm still learning things I ought to know by now
It's under the table so
I need something more to show somehow

Never again no
No never again

'Cause you're a god
And I am not
And I just thought
That you would know
You're a god
And I am not
And I just thought
I'd let you go

I've got to be honest
I think you know
We're covered in lies and that's OK
There's somewhere beyond this I know
But I hope I can find the words to say
Never again no
No never again

'Cause you're a god
And I am not
And I just thought
That you would know
You're a god
And I am not
And I just thought
I'd let you go

"Everywhere"

Turn it inside out so I can see
The part of you that's drifting over me
And when I wake you're, you're never there
But when I sleep you're, you're everywhere
You're everywhere

Just tell me how I got this far
Just tell me why you're here and who you are
'Cause every time I look
You're never there
And every time I sleep
You're always there

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone

I recognize the way you make me feel
It's hard to think that
You might not be real
I sense it now, the water's getting deep
I try to wash the pain away from me
Away from me

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone

I am not alone
Whoa, oh, oooh, oh

And when I touch your hand
It's then I understand
The beauty that's within
It's now that we begin
You always light my way
I hope there never comes a day
No matter where I go
I always feel you so

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I catch my breath
It's you I breathe
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone

You're in everyone I see
So tell me
Do you see me?