i need somewhere i can open up. unfortunately, there's smth wrong wid my other blog. n i reli need ta write down my thoughts. tdy's been a reli crappy day. suddenly felt lyk everybody wans a piece of me. so many ppl telling me wan ta do. t'chers sch mates. now every morning is da same thing. go ta sch. put my bag in class. hearing everybody sayin abt hw tt i usually wont do. soon aft i'll haf ta do down to da office to take da daily announcements. in da office tchers will ask me to do stuff if dey need anything. now da tchers think its so ez for em. dey dun haf to write da announcements anymore. dey just tell me n i kinda haf ta memorise it on da spot. there's been times wher i read it wrongly coz its kinda long. some times da grammar or wadever is not correct n i get blasted at coz if it even if da tcher was da one writing da announcement. if my english was wrong ms shamsudin will scream her head off. there was even once. it was da first day of sch of term 4. saw that da flags were still in da office n i didnt know hus turn it was to raise da flags. so i jus brought em along. got to da parade sq i asked mrs singh which class was raising the flags. she screamed at me. jus bcoz she didnt noe n da bell was gonna ring. tis is wad i get fer trying ta be helpful. u try to do smth gd but it looks lyk ur doin smth bad n u get blasted at. i ended up runing all over da parade sq asking da prefects to do it. to add to that alreadi horrible day. some prefects gave me attitude. bt at least sam & carmen bothered to help. (thks gals) was alreadi tired b4 assembly started.

usually when i reach class aft reading period. i cant think abt da hw i haven done. i'll haf ta think of when r my meetings i haf ta go. n when i haf ta do stuff fer my tchers. gather names. plan events. all that stuff. n sometimes when one thing is over. another thing pops up.

guess wad. now i haf two cca to maintain. two camps to plan. one club ta set up. haf high expectations to meet. n pass my exams wid flying colours. parents ya noe. dey dun bother abt anything reguarding my sch. jus wan me to get gd grades. my father even said that he wanted me to go RJC. he doesnt even noe wad i do in sch. n he wans me to go there. den camps. gt npcc plus SL camp ta plan. both at end of year. now onli started on npcc coz CIs pressuringme abt it. some more i'm nt da co-ordinator. i'm onli da assistant co-ordinator. dey shuld be questioning da co-ordinator which IS NOT ME! at least we're planing it 2gether. isaac & cheng yee. thks guys. u've reli been a great help even though u guys haf nvr planed a camp b4. thks lods. next got interact club to set up. guess wad our installation gonna be aft exams. yea. weird. some more all da board members r reli bz. first of all da 4 ppl hu went fer da leadership training were supposed ta be yamuna, klara, sam & myself. in da end yam didnt go. she got lotsa excuses. replaced her wid frederick. but he oso onli go fer on day. den fred & klara lyk v reluctantly to go. da onli good thing abt it was that i met so many new frenz. mich cheng hui dey all frm evergreen sec. n da rtn there. aft da training in term 3. we did nth much to set up da club. ppl v bz. den mr shahul asked me ta choose da board of dir. usually da tcher advisor will choose. anw, i asked klara which post she wanted. in da end she didnt even wanna join interact. so wasted. that one space in at YMCA could have given it to somebody else. now my board no haf VP n finance director. some more da board members r reli v bz. pris gt her own stuff ta do. den fred lyk v reluctant to do stuff. ask him do oso fer wad if do nvr do properly. jun hong wont do anything unless he is asked to. must tell him den will move. yea. den sam oso v bz. she's gt so many cca. dunno wads wrong wid da freaking sch. giv ppl so many cca fer wad. coz of that her studies dropping ya noe. been trying ta help her but dunno wad ta do. stupid sch.

den in npcc. da NCOs. heard that some ppl gonna "overthrow" me. dey say that i do everything. since when did i do that. i onli do wadever is required of a chairman. i dont do the PT and i dont plan da RT. so wad dey wan. arent dey doin that. not enuff? ok. i give em more work den dey say that i oways ask ppl to do things. y ppl wanna make so much trouble. dun understand sometimes.

den da prefectorial board. dunno wad ta say. now onli got 15 prefects running around campus 2. can count da 4N prefects out. den prefect dun even do their duties properly. dey do wadever whenever dey wan. jus dunno wad ta say. some more yamuna is suppose ta be da sec 3 rep. she suppose ta help me. bt everytime there smth on she'll giv excuses again lyk usual. during meetings she doesnt make sure everybody knows abt it. she doesnt make sure that da place fer da meeting is opened n unoccupied. she jus sits there n listen. n i noe y. she's clever. tis yer onwards she's nt gonna do so much extra stuff coz its nt gonna help her. she's jus gonna focus on her studies. tts where da excuses come in.

sometimes i reli feel lyk doin it ya noe. jus drop everything u haf. n jus focus on studies. i would haf so much time for myself n my studies. n i wont haf to bother at other ppl at all. so relaxed. jus look at sam. (sorry i'm using u as an example) she got so involved in so many things n now its reli affecting her studies seriously. n this whole thing is onli abt sch. cant even begin to start abt da problems i face at hm. nt gonna say em here. some where else.

tdy in class i did smth unexpected. i did it 3 times. first during assembly. second during MT. third during ENG. dun think anybody saw it though it was v obvious. i jus couldnt control myself.

to all u ppl hu haf been reading this i'm sorry. i've jus been complaining throughout. usually i'll write tis in my personal blog. n i used ta tell my v close frenz where to find my personal blog. bt dey dun care actually. one of em even forgot abt it. dun noe abt da others. but dey dun visit it. theres a thing called a counter ya noe. tts y i dun reveal it to jus anybody.

lyk i said b4. i have been complaining non-stop. doubt anybody will read word for word of this. if u did. thanks alot. hope i get ta noe hu u are.