life is full of up n down... recently felt kinda happie coz me realised somethin but now me goin down again... me jus feel lky me dun belong anywheres.. is lky ppl haf their own grps rite... but i'm lky movin from one ta another... me always see ppl always wid their own "grp"... lky special ppl they're always wid... a grp of frenz tt r always 2gether... so envious... so lost... so confused...

2day me finally got me ans to da qns tts lky always been on me mind... tot abt it fer so long... da ans swayed from left to rite... almost made a mistake... but 2day everythin became so clear 2 me... i finally noe wad ta do... me've finally found me ans... [aLwAyS tHeRe fEr yOu] ~PeAcE Out~

yea!! ytd was so freakin fun... but was so tiring.. mornin had npcc.. had ta report at 7.30.. isaac was ofcoz... late... haha.. den we practice lky mad though we reli slow... den we were asked ta go in da tent... jie larp ask us ta slp coz we wanted 2... everybody was lky do happie... but saw his face den ppl say he bo liao... ahh!!! jie larp got bo liao face... die... den keep sayin tt da tent will fall on us... jon kept grabbin georgia's leg coz she jus outside.. so farnie sia.. took her shoe off den throw away... we were lky luffin crazee... haha... so da gerz all faster kick da twine 2 make da tent fall.. everybody rush 2 get out le... 2 mamy ppl so me crawl under da tent... kana kick in da head arhz... 2pid li ping... ow! pain leh... lollzz... den isaac, lun & me go fer sec 1 & 2 sing along... hai~ everybody lky so sian... me see their faces oso sian... lollzz.. ate lunch den go pa fer comp... saw phua dere in squad leh.. is fer police day parade de... da comp was so disappointin... da twine lky made of papper lky tt... da wind blow oso can snap de... den da tent fly everywhere...

went back ta sch 2 meet pris, yam & zhi hao... plan fer amazin race... walk so much... some more is onli first part of it... leg pain...

den 5+ rush hm 2 get ready ta go 2 victoria conert hall... get 2 be usher dere... hehez.. so happie... met cindy & ana at bishan... den go funan look fer cp they all... we ended up late... coz dunno how ta walk dere... lollzz.. ana, cindy & me walk faster.. but cp they all still got time 2 take picture... lollzz.. we luffin away.. but da pic kinda nice... reach dere onli saw yau ngai n mr mok... think da rest haven reach... da gerz change 2 cog shoes.. they look so farnie... haha... found da guy in charge.. cp, grace, ana, cindy & me took da upstairs... da rest took da downstairs.. we suppose ta collect donations fer tis singapore association for the visually disabled... kinda cool... got ppl perform fer free 2 help... performance oso freakin nice... da music n stuff... 5 of us tok tok alot.. den collectin donations tt time saw mrs seah... ms quek oso supposed ta come but nvr see her... after da thing found out tt da guy we helpin kinda a big boss... he's a regional research manager or somethin lky tt... wah... we all so shocked... walkin back we took alot of grp pics.. den make cp look kinda farnie... lky ghost lky tt... reached hm at abt 12+...

tis pass few days me been feelin kinda farnie... me dunno how close she thinks we are... if we're jus frenz or somethin even more... feelin confused & lost... sometimes i felt sure of it... but sometimes i'm jus not sure... me hope i will find da answer 2 my qns.... soon.............. ~PeAcE OuT~

freak arhz... 2day so freakin sick... till need ta stay hm... slpt da whole day.. me nvr absent from sch in me 3 yers of sec sch life... lollzz.. first time.. den evening got ta go victoria concert hall fer some stuff... met ana at bishan but she late den saw 2 of me frenz.. felicia & qi hui.. we tok tok... fel kept askin me got stead anot.. hai~ den tok lods of crap... den met da rest at raffles mrt... follow cp go dere... scared she dunno where den lead till lost.. luckt nvr lost.. den noreen n lily lky tourist lky tt... take out their hp den start takin pics everywhere... haha... so farnie... reach da place den had ta find our way in... found da guy... mrs goh late.. hai~ again... so fun.. heard da music den walk here walk dere... after tt da sec 4s surprise mrs goh wid her present... so farnie... we tok tok tok till da mrt... inside mrt oso tok.. till got ppl starin... den da grace.. aiyo.. make fun of mrs goh den ppl look even more... haha... got of at bishan... reach hm bt 8.30pm... haha... sat gonna be even later... haha... ~PeAcE OuT~

yea.. nth much happenin tis few days... yesterday went out wid e same few peeps again... carmen... lun... amanda... went ta watch a movie... gathaka or somethin lky tt... not reli tt scary cept fer one or two parts... other den tt it was kinda nth... me still dunno if me shuld give ppl v day gift... oso dunno wad ta get... yea... monday... another typical day... hear so many ppl conplainin abt their lives... self centered ppl... dey haf no idea of those ppl hu are reli bz... lky those hu haf lods of responsibilities... high standards 2 keep up wid... these ppl do all their work without complain... wah... tis are e ppl hu haf a rite 2 complain all dey wan... but dey still dont... me respect u wor... but 2 bad me dun see anybody lky tt in sch... all me hear is complain complain complain.. say they haf no time fer hw but they go out everyday after sch... dun listen in class... tts wad u expect rite... no offence.. but me call tis 2pid ppl... self centered... arrogant... even me think tt me is lky tis kinda ppl... but i'm tryin ta change... me think tt me complain alot... though me dun noe it... but me jus think so... so me hope tt everybody will quit whinnin n suck it up... no offence ta ppl... so jus do it without complain... complainin will not get u anywhere... ~PeAcE OuT~

me jus wanna put tis phrase me got from kaz... it goes somethin lky tis...... "Jus coz ur older doesnt mean i have ta respect you... You haf ta earn it..." ~PeAcE OuT~

me feelin abit weird rite now.... got so many stuff goin on in me life... some gd most bad... all tis plus e work n stress reli sux... but me feel tt now fallin away from a grp of frenz tt me used ta respect... but not anymore... even my closest frenz are driftin away... ppl expect so much but me can onli give so little... so its kinda e end of me... i'll no longer be me... you wont haf ta worry abt me anymore... coz i'll be gone.......