hmm... did nth much 2day.. jus let e day fly by... bz wk up ahead.. gotta rest.. but cant slp!! *hai* e gap in me mouth coz me tooth broke is kinda irritatin... *dotx* dunno wad 2 do 2day.. cant think.. got 2 much on my mind me think... hu noes...

i think i'm fallin aslp rite nw... jus got back frm m'sia wif me family... took a 5hr bus ride manx... jus sat dere listanin 2 me discman.. full blast... had a headache after tt... *hai* e whole 3 days dere was so boring... was lky nth 2 do... e hotel was near e twin towers... had a cool view... ~WHOA!!~ rm was okie... but dere was nth 2 do... all me family did there was shoppin... day n nite... me sis bought e most stuff... lods of stuff... haha... me luved e rm e most... especially at nite b4 me abt 2 slp... so comfortable... ~AHH...~ hehez... on e way back disaster struck... me tooth broke!!! me front tooth some more!!! i fell... cant believe it manx.. was lky a nitemare... tt was when i already arrived in s'pore leh... *sobx sobx* other den tt me holz is borin so me not gonna tok abt it...

but tis wk me gonna be lky so freakin bz... tues & thurs got npcc... e campcraft stuff... found out lods ppl not goin leh... sec 3 some more... *hai* last trainin onli 3 guys went... den me need go back sch fer some sec 1 regist stuff... need 2 prepare somethin... some more me & some friens wanted 2 go ice skatin leh.... how?? den e mly gerz in me class wanna go out coz of hari raya... visit ppl hse... i still need go dentist leh... 2 days npcc, 1 day go sch, 2 day out wif friens, 1 day dentist... haha... den me still not sure which is on which day... *hai* all me can think is tt at least i got somethin 2 do... haha... *lame*

hmm... 2day 2day 2day... B-O-R-I-N-G!!! mornin used me com till afternoon... after tt me went out... alone... wondered around aimlessly... was walking... suddenly me felt e world pass by me so fast.. its was lky i no longer had a reason 2 live or somethin lky tt... loneliness is somethin everybody goes thru.. i noe of some other ppl hu oso feels tis way... wondering around aimlessly lky me... so me gonna try 2 mix wif em more... i dun wan em 2 be lonely n i wanna 2 haf at least somebody 2 tok 2... i dun wan somebody hu jus toks abt him or herself... lky e world revolves around him/her... 2 bad i do haf friens lky tt... but i still haf high hopes tt they will change... i haf been hopin fer a long time n it seems nobody has answered (changed)... but i will nvr give up...

hope u peeps can 4give me fer being so.... so lovie dovie 2day... jus feelin kinda...................

heya... yesterday was hari raya... went visitin... den all me aunties & uncles... i was kinda quiet... me always lky tt... relatives hse always quiet... nvr tok much unless wif me cuz... den ytd jus found out somethin... me unties & uncles r bery farnie... laughed alot... didnt noe y i didnt realised tis earlier... but me didnt visit much... went hm... so tired... at nite me went j8... was kinda late... abt 10 - 11pm... j8 was closin... but me saw ying lap & jia lap sir... (sorry if me spell ur names wrongly) some more... desmond sir was wif em... he's workin manx... hehez... tall guy... okie guys.. tts all.. nth left 2 say... cya...

was in sch almost e whole day... left me hse at abt 8.. den went isaac hse 2 print somethin... after tt had 2 go sch... got meetin arhz... supposed 2 be at 10 but postponed till 11... sat at readin corner listenin 2 muzix... saw mrs goh... showed her e booklet... jus need 2 change here n dere... found out somethin... me left e diskett at isaac hse... *crap manx* me went all e way back dere jus 2 get it back... but stayed dere fer a while... did e editin... *hai* isaac n his 2pid bears... so farnie... everyday he laze around at hm... watch tv & slp... haha... he was watchin.... okie... nvm... better not say.. haha... after tt me went sch again... saw winnie & nicolette cuttin some stuff near bk shop dere... haha... they were moanin & groanin... went com lab 2 print e stuff... pram & yammy tok tok wif me abt next yer com... got 5 ppl i thin... after tt showed mrs goh... den still got some more stuff 2 do.. went office do... at mr toh table dere... haha.. so farnie... he tokin on e phone so loud... wah... so coolin in dere... haha... finish den help others do e notice boards... though i dun thin i did much... hehez... yammy & pram left so early... *hai* den once everythin finish liaoz... me, nicol & win go play play wif other cher table... haha... mr Z. table so farnie... got so uch weird stuff... den winnie carry e big plastic bag lky ahma lky tt... haha... jkjk... after tt me go laze around... go jln jln alone... *hai* so bored... till buka... n after tt here i am... haha...

felt kinda weird since yesterdae nite... a thought jus popped in my head... it was all abt my friens n tt i was alone n everybody hates me... cant believe all tis is comin into my head now... den me heart ached... and i couldnt breath!!! seriously... i had difficulty breathing...suddenly felt so sad... lky its e end of e world... wads worse.. raya is cumin... some more tis is not e first time i'm havin tis kinda thoughts... dere haf been a few other times oso... same stuff happened... i dunno y tis is happenin but me thinks tt tis is all of my sort of "emotions" tt i keep inside... *hai*... i'm gettin all emotional now... 2pid me... hope tis stops soon... i dun lky feelin tis way...

yesterday was a "late" day fer me... but 2day was an "alone" day... whole day was sort of alone.. used e com frm mornin till abt 2pm... den me went outz... alone... me went kallang... wanted 2 check out e price of e ice skatin dere... n oso 2 see how big e ring was... took abt 45 mins 2 get dere... $8 / 3hrs... 2 bucks fer skates... n 5 fer hockey skates... me luv hockey skates... those normal skates r old & kinda diff 2 use... den went 2 e bowlin allie dere.. kinda deserted... quiet oso... $2.20 per game... minimun 6 games... *hai*... after that it RAIN!! so freakin heavy... got totally soaked while walkin 2 e bus stop... *freakin weather*... den on e bus & mrt i was so COLD... when e train was movin it felt lky a blizzard... haha... was still shiverin when me reached hm...

after me warmed up abit i rmb somethin... i had a whole booklet 2 do fer e sec 1 regist... not done yet... e worse thin was that i had 2 do it frm scratch... mrs goh couldnt find e diskett... nvm... at least i had somethin 2 do... so me did that till buka... n after that here i am... so cya... still got lods work 2 do...

2day is a bery "late" day fer me... let me explain... first i had a meetin a sch... supposed 2 start at 9.30 but started onli at abt 11 plus... *hai* wait 1 1/2 hrs leh... den supposed 2 meet min hui at jurong at 12.30 leh... at JURONG okie... but... e meetin onli ended at abt 12.30 coz i asked em 2 finish it up... called min hui.. told her i will be late... (minhui.. so sorry..) reached jurong at 1.30... (late number 1) 7 ppl went... min hui was e onli ger manx... all e other gerz didnt turn up... expected audrey 2 come... at least her brother accompanied her... sec 4 guy.. kinda okie okie... e others were... well, i dunno... didnt tok 2 em... gideon was there... he acted lky i was a stranger... so me onli mix wif min hui n her brother... we went ice skatin... kinda okie... when we were goin out e lady at e cashier said tt we were 1min late!!! tis is crap manx... we got charged 4 e extra hour... (late number 2) after tt 3 of e guys went off... one of em stayed behind... davin... i think he's kinda close wif min hui... lky gd friens or even.. erHem... haha... decided 2 go bowling... looked fer some where near but went 2 e one in yishun instead... we missed e shuttle by jus a bit... (late number 3) rushed 2 play b4 6pm... coz it will be more expensive... 4 ppl played at e same time... when wanted 2 pay we found out tt 2 games were after 6pm!!! (late number 4) *hai*... so fed up... after a day of lateness... we all went hm... relax....

so muddy... 2day got campcraft trainin.. mornin so early go sch at 7.30 but i met fsl at 7... go dere first thin.. pt... den shout here shout dere... sec 2s got me, fsl, j.chan & lisi... sec 1s even worse... onli got nicolette... haha... 2bad... she all alone... after pt we go back cam 2 den i inside tent pitching... lucky not flag pole... coz me oso dunno wad 2 do... at first i kana 2 tie e corner but den i 2 slow arhz... *hai*... doin my best already... ended up slower den e gerz... malu say...haha... so jonathan change lo... he is e captain wad... i go do vert pole... yay... i better at that... haha... second, third try we slightly faster den e gerz... but they oso given more time... pitch den unpitch we use up alot of twine leh... somemore rush rush den i got all muddy... got so much mud under me nail... so irritating... training end at 1.30 i think... so long... since mornin leh... nvm... endure... after that went j8 wif fsl... jalan jalan... went hm so tired... so i slept lo... haha... woke up at abt 5 somethin den go ntuc buy stuff... after that get ready 4 buka lo... so means 2day nth much arhz... kinda tiring...

la-la-la-la... lalalalalala... kinda borin 2day.. slept most of e day... woke up at abt 11.. den slept again n woke up at 4pm... haha... after tt tired FF2... stupid game manx... impossible 2 level up... went 2 e game shop lookin 4 FF8.. supposed 2 haf but still out of stock.. *hai*... looked 4 another game but oso no haf... they lyk onli got alot of ps2 or pc games... bery little ps games... tts y me cant get it... after tt went j8 2 buy me comic... saw woon teng & her friens at bishan mrt... she nvr wear glasses... look bery bluur blur... a bit lyk isaac lyk tt... haha... so farnie.. after me bought e comic i went home den my father brought me out 2 buka at pizza hut... wah... so nice... den on me way dere i finished readin e comic i bought... so fast... volume 13 onli... cant wait 4 e next bk 2 cum out...

went sch 2day... helped shi wee n lene 2 do notice boards... supposed 2 meet em at 9am but me woke up late... 2 tired... me onli reached sch at abt 9.30... saw em at readin corner... they started liaoz... do do do... i go dere help em cut things onli... lene draw... shi wee paste... haha... after a while lisi called... she oso cumin liaoz... she can decorate bery well leh.. all bery nice... saw mrs goh... asked her abt e meetin den call hu... when.. all tis kinda stuff... tok tis tok that... den had 2 pick some pics 4 e notice boards... lisi went back wif her sis... after chose e photos all went off.. sw n lene go makan... so i went hmv... alone.....

went hmv 2 find some cds... lookin 4 tis album dunno e singer or album name... siao liaoz... how 2 find it lky tis... nvm... jus try arhz... wonderin dere 4 abt 2hrs... cant believe it... but listened 2 some nice cds... 2bad.. i'm flat broke... went hm n played FF1... YEAH!!! completed it jus now... it was e shortest n easiest final fantasy game i ever played... (expected) it was e first one... e game is lky 13 yrs old... haha... me gettin FF8 tmr... YIPEE!!!

kinda boring 2day... stayed at hm... me woke up abt 11 somethin den did some stuff but most of e day i played FF1... almost completed it manx... onli left e temple of chaos (dun think u guys understand wad i'm tokin abt)... anywayz, its kinda a short game (lame)... gonna get FF8 soon... ahh... cant wait... played frm abt noon till abt 6 somethin... 6hrs straight... whoa!! anywayz i'm still kinda tired frm atc... so it was quite an okie day... nth else 2 say abt it... didnt do much...

yoz peeps.. me jus got back frm atc.. wah.. so freaking tired.. now can bearly keep my eyes open.. but e camp was quite fun lor.. first thin got 2 sch that friday check me results.. YAY!! i got into 3e1.. so happie.. den quite alot of me friends oso.. lky my sister n fsl.. so i dun reli mind my class cept 4 one or two ppl.. anyway after that saw isaac n phua.. they were makin so much noize abt their classes.. 9am.. falled in at parade ground.. turned out onli 11 ppl showed up.. sickening.. noridah had stomach ache which was quite understandable.. but some idiot said that he fall while walking down the staircase n decided not 2 come coz he spraned his ankle.. i dun wan 2 be unsympethetic but he nvr even bothered 2 call us.. so ain was lky e onli ger that went.. total 11 ppl.. pethetic.. took a boat 2 ubin.. dere we still had 2 walk 2 e campsite which i think was lky more den 2 km away.. we were already lky so tired but still needed 2 trek.. reach there saw e other schs... RI, cat high n peirce outnumbered BWL... cat high had lky 30 campers ez.. got splited into 6 grps... me n phua one grp... blockhead n j.tan another... quite okie larz my grp... every grp got 3 gerz... 15 - 16 guys... haha.. den masraah was in me grp... long time nvr tok 2 me pri sch frien liaoz.. she still quiet but can tok more now... made friens wif 2-3 guys frm cat high.. one guys frm RI... kinda nice guy... n e other 2 gerz frm peirce... all nice ppl... haha... den had 2 cum up wif a grp name... theme was food... *hai* got ppl fastin u noe... but nvm arhz... tahan... we ended up wif "pasta"... after tt had 2 pitch our tents... me, phua, roysten (guanyang), his frien n 2 other RI guys in same tent as me... quite okie arhz tis ppl... once tt was done we went 4 our activities in our grps... me grp went 4 survival skills first... me sch CIs took us... after dere was dinner... broke fast den ate... i onli ate 2 cans of pineapples which was actually quite enough... nobody in me grp liked em so i ate em... haha.. after dinner got sing a long.. some games den SLP!!

but... had sentry duty at 1am till 2am... n debrief enden onli at 12.15am so didnt slp b4 me duty... tt night i onli slpt ONE hour!! 2.30 - 3.30.. at 4.30 woke up sahur... den didnt slp after tt coz had 2 fall in at 6am... second day did e other 2 activities... low risk elements n kayacking.. kinda okie.. dinner was e same... pineapples... tt night had campfire... so fun... tot tt me grps cheers were e best... haha... but lost most of me voice during e fire... night walk was bery bery muddy... boring... tiring... after tt slpt.. NO DUTY!! yeah!! had 4 hrs of peace... woke up 4 sahur.. had firedrill at 5am... everybody was so tired... last day was mostly cleanin up... after pt unpitched our tents... everybody kept folding e tents wrongly n took a long time... area cleaning... me grp did e canteen but i volunteered 2 help e FIs do somethin... it was kinda better den cleaning e canteen... after tt e CIs checked all our equipement we had 2 return lky e stoves... me grp was safe... others kana punishment... distributed e rations.. of course.. i took most of e pineapples... haha... i exchanged some contacts but one e-mail was wrong!! AHH!! it was peiru's (peirce sec)... peiru if ur readin tis den pls send me ur e-mail address... mines lp_cool_freak@hotmail.com camp as over still had 2 trek back 2 e jetty... so freaking tired manx... rained some more... but at least i won some prize 4 being motivated person or somethin lky tt... once i reached hm there was onli one thing 2 do... SLP!! n that was wad i did....

wah... 2day so tiring arhz... suppose go beach rd wif phua, j.tan, fsl, isaac but fsl n isaac nvr cum... *hai* so onli 3 of us lo... den met in sch saw jie min n pz... they got some carnival thingy near dhoby ghaut dere... but tan needed 2 buy poncho so we tried ps lo... but.. *OUT OF STOCK!!* hai.. after that we went 2 e carnival thingy 2 see see lo... still cant believe me sch won 3rd prize...

after that we went bowling... phua n tan go beach rd... still lookin 4 e poncho... so me n some other ppl go bowl near suntec dere... so tired leh... played 4 games... half way thru found out phua n tan got lost coz they took e wrong bus... haha.. but they finally bought e poncho den went 2 meet e rest of us bowlin lo... ended quite late some more... den everybody was lky rushin... any how throw e ball leh... THROW leh!! not ROLL!!... reached bishan at abt 7.30 i think... den eat eat... bought some stuff 4 atc tmr... cant wait...

some more tmr atc leh... still dunno wad 2 expect... den b4 go atc still must take results... takin results more nervous den goin atc leh... how? dunno wad 2 do liaoz... n one more thing... i haven pack my BAG!!! AHH!!! haha...

jus now mornin got me promotion test... feel quite confident some more... went dere den isaac uniform was lky in a total mess... tis was slanted... that was wrong... n 4 the first time... i thin... he actually polished his boots... cant believe it when he told me over e phone... but unfortunately when i saw it... everybody was laughin... haha... den we all fall in... (luckily we not late) kana separated into 3 grps... chan n my sister same grp as me!! YAY!! haha... but not same as blockhead so cant bully him do timing... *hai..* nvm... my grp gd enough liaoz... but e worse thing arhz... was that i was first 2 say command leh... mr yong say coz i fastin... waliao.. dun wan la... but it was quite okie lo... i onli 4got to say 2 commands... got other ppl nvr say even more... den i quite happie lo... e rest of e day me n j.chan rotate 4 timer... den after e test e whole squad lky so happie oso... onli 8 ppl need 2 re-take den our drills lky kinda gd lo...

pjh n fsl kept playin in toilet... they crazee arhz... ppl changin den they run around wif dunno wad mop or broom stick lky they wanna wack each other... haha... it was chaotic n freakin farnie... we agreed 2 meet tmr... go beach rd 2 but some stuff 4 friday atc... wah.. some ppl say its scary some say bery fun... dunno wad 2 expect... AHHH!!! i still haven pack!!! cant wait...

2day went skatin.. so fun.. supposed 2 go wif my frien but last minute cancel... coz they wan 2 go shoppin or dunno wad arhz... den found out jasmine they all goin so they asked me go along wif em lo... wah... so long nvr see em liaoz... all transfer go different sch... they oso look quite diff... but they still crazee as ever... still wacking each other... n its lyk so hard leh... when they hit each other got sound effect wan... *piack!!* made me quite scared... but after a while we tok tok den okie liaoz... jasmine kept pullin on ppl coz she always lky wanna fall lky that... haha... den i kept laughin at her... hehez.. how bad of me... fun sia... some more we long time nvr see each other... last time oso nvr tok wan... but now... lky crazee ppl lky tt... 2 bad we had 2 leave early coz somebody got swimming... hehez... nvm arhz... at least had fun... tis time round i think i skate bery fast leh... i was lky.. "WEE!!" turn here turn dere... got these 2 guys they bought those gd pair of skates... so jealous... but nvm coz i still skate faster den em... haha.. one of em was lky so fed up that he kept skatin around me lky wan 2 hit me lky that... but hu cares... haha... jus felt so happie that i now can skate a biitttt better...

sux manz... freakin com... lag n lag den hang... freak arhz... 2day went sch dun ask me 4 wad... did some stuff there... saw ver, pris n gang praticin their drills manz... onli 1st rank den they pratice till lky tt... my promotion test tis wed n i nvr even study a single bit... luckily i noe all my commands liaoz... den saw mrs goh... ask me come back sch next wk... *hai* nvm... at least i got somethin 2 do... better den doin nth...

after that went PS met my frien there... we walk here n dere... talk here n dere... found out ju-on 2 coming out... cooollzz manz... cant wait... coz e frist one was freaking nice... den saw celeste at mrt... she n some of her friens... i noe em but 4got their names liaoz... so sad.. *sobx sobx* one e way back i went 2 tis game shop... was lookin for FF8... OUT OF STOCK!!! ahh!! nvm... settled 4 Final Fantasy Origins... yea... its e old one.. jus hoped i didnt waste my money...

after buka went ntuc... buy stuff la of course... yay!! got to buy my fav drink.. capri - somethin somethin.. used 2 drink it everyday in pri sch... but i jus 4got abt it... den during my npcc full day training e ncos gave it out as first n second prize... wasted... my grp got third... *sobx sobx* chocolate onli... but now can drink all i wan... cept during e day... haha...

hmm... I wonder what this button does.. decided to create my own blog.. coz the holz are like so damn boring.. there's almost nth to do.. then i saw my friends blogs. made me kinda jealous... at least they have some thing to do... unlike me... wastin all my time everyday doing nth... hai...

i bought some ff posters but i still haven wrapped em... thought that it would take up some of my time... givin me something to do... first post i'm gonna make it short... wanna see what it really looks like.. hehez.. cya.. n chillll out manz...